Wishing for Just One Day With You...

Oh my sweet girl, the time I had to hold you was too short.  If I was granted one wish it would be to hold you and feel your warm little hand wrap around my finger, even if it was just for one day.  I would take you home and let you sleep in my arms, never putting you down.  I would count your toes again and stroke your soft hair.  I would whisper I love you and tell you what a pretty girl you are.  I would hold you close and soothe your cries.  I would study your face and tell you how precious you are.  I would never want to let you go.  I would remember that day forever.

Today She Would Be Three...

Today is a hard day.  Anna would have turned 3 today.  We would be in full swing with a family party and some sort of celebration with her friends...but instead nothing.

I try to imagine what she would look like at 3.  I try but it is all a blank.  I'm not sure.  She is frozen in time as that little bundle she was when she was first born.  I miss her...I feel I failed her.  She deserved a chance to live and did not get it.   Today is her day.  I hope she knows I am thinking of her and she is loved and missed and that she was important and mattered.

If you read this please say a prayer for her and for all the little babies who are about to come into the world that they will be healthy and safe and live long healthy lives.  Kiss and hug your children and remember that nothing is forever.  I have learned you must love people for the time you have them.

Love, peace and fun to you my sweet Anna.  We miss you so much and look forward to the day we meet again.